i've been trying to pull off this trend for a few weeks now, and i think it's time to come to terms with the fact that i will not be able to rock it postpartum.
i managed it somewhat with a bulky sweater:
no i'm not going to take a better picture.
2. in my quiet times i've been struggling along, reading a psalm in the ESV and then the same psalm in THE MESSAGE (love it).
today i read Ps 76.
"surely the wrath of man shall praise You;
the remnant of wrath You will put on like a belt."
"instead of smoldering rage--God-praise!
all that sputtering rage--now a garland for God."
i know you don't need me to tell you which version is which.
i don't really know what this verse means. i also don't know how to explain how i interpret this (and every scripture) to mean that when His children are angry He turns His back on them so He can continue being aloof and glorious. that He will garner praise from the suffering of His children buried alive under their sins.
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i don't think that is right (well i actually believe it even though it is obviously unbiblical). that is how to perpetuate anger via shame and self-effort been there done that. that is not who i am and who He is and what we are doing together.
i think this verse touches on something messy and mystical about my sanctification as i accept my anger problems--not that they are not sin-- but that my anger is an important part of the story He's writing. and i think it means something about how great He is in relation to me (meaning both compared to me, yes, but also in relationship with me. His care for me is part of what makes Him great, although I believe the opposite).
what is left of my wrath (my smoldering, sputtering rage) when i get to heaven will be the remnant that He will put on like a belt. and He will look good.
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