(speaking about God, their Enemy)
He’s vulgar, Wormwood. He has a bourgeois mind. He has filled His world full of pleasures.
There are things for humans to do all day long without
His minding in the least—sleeping, washing, eating, drinking, making love,
playing, praying, working.
i have operated for so long under the view that everything i
do is bad. if i’m reading i should be working. which may be true.
but now it has morphed into ‘if i’m working i should be with fred, and
if i’m with fred i should be working’!
whatever i’m doing, i should be doing something else or at the very
least be doing what i’m doing much MUCH better. i would love to waltz through
my day doing things that God doesn’t mind in the least—trusting that He has
made my days pleasurable and innocent.
i think this involves getting over myself a little (or a
lot). i have very little real
existing suffering in my life, but i generate a ton of inner imaginary
suffering. Corrie Ten Boom says “He
is always with us. Today, while
preparing a meal, while writing, while teaching, while doing office work. There might not be any difficulties
today. Yes, that is quite
possible, but your Guide is with you; the Lord is with you.” there
might not be any difficulties today?
that thought has never once crossed my mind in my entire life (even
though I don’t really have very many difficulties)! the activities she lists are my whole life, past (office
work), present and future (teaching my children) and she says those things
aren’t inherently difficult, plus i STILL get to have my Guide with me. i want that carefree mindset please.
beware, i may be switching one pagan mindset for another,
without any Christ to save me.
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