incarnation

been feeling lost and condemned in my days.  want to read and do internets 24/7.  not sure how much housework i'm supposed to be doing, how much i'm supposed to play with freddy, or even what my <3 should be towards him (if only i had a new affection!!  that would solve all my problems!!).

jared suggested we watch a jesus movie this holy week.  jared is great.  so we watched the gospel of john.  thinking about jesus putting up with the precious disciples ("is he mad about the bread?!") gave me a lightbulb moment.

to me come the privilege and duty of INCARNATION as an 11 month old.  i get to sit w/ freddy on the floor and sometimes be bored, i get to take him outside to look at birds and sometimes be bored, i get to try to trick him into eating, i get to rock him to sleep and sometimes fall asleep, i get to read hop on pop a lady-gaga-zillion times and never get bored.  he is my little congregation.  i think this is christlike.

and now somehow this principle has set me free.  i don't feel lost.  limiting my internets is not the point.  incarnation is the point.  jesus' grand, glorious incarnation and now my mini-magical one.

i have felt guilty b/c i have borrowed trouble from tomorrow when we hopefully have a buttload of kids.  but if i have a lazy-daisy life right now why should i feel guilty about that?  and it's true, in the future i will probably need to follow a housekeeping routine or we all will die but who cares about that now (as long as jared has clean underwear in his drawer)?  and in the future, my leisure time will probably dwindle away to nothing but who cares about that now!!  when i have no time for escape i will deal with that then.  why did my summer of no expectations have to end when summer ended?

the new jesse:  my calling is incarnation w/ Freddy.  i can read blogs as much as i want as long as jared has clean underwear in his drawer.


my new grasp of Jesus' incarnation: when He was with the Father, He could read blogs all day long.  but He came down to earth at a time when the internet hadn't even been invented yet!!!!  

i'm not joking.  the thought causes me to praise Him.